The door slams; I’m alone againBut this time it’s for good,
I feel relieved yet darkness peeks
And I wonder if I should
Knowing full well what I seek,
Knowing that I never could.
Because for so long...
I existed only within your existenceWhile you ignored my presence,
I became a ghost of my subsistence,
Never noticing my absence.
It’s 3am, the night’s rolled inI lay covered in its shroud.
I close my eyes, but still sleep evades
As memories scream silent, yet aloud
Of how our tangled life’s charade
Had deceived the surrounding crowd.
Strange they didn’t notice...
I existed only within your existenceThat you ignored my presence,
I became a ghost of my subsistence.
And they never missed my absence.
The dark nights pass, into days, then weeks,Exceeding years that interweave
I turn around twice and realize
How with the heart the mind deceives
To warranting wanton fears
Into twisted beds of lies.
I exist only within my own existenceWhile I revel in your absence
And my ghost consents with no resistance
To the veracity of my essence.
The door opens wide, I’m myself againAnd this time—it’s for good.